> Hold on to me and never let me go;
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This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait

Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you

Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me

and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go..


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Sunday, December 28, 2008
11:04 PM

I'm super de angry today!! Last nite i msg her aaron's number.. But she nv reply me... Therefor i send the same sms to her again... And again.. SHE NEVER REPLY... After a nite of thinking... I told myself.. I should not be so nice to such ungrateful idiot.!! I thought for a very long time, what shall i msg her? Finally.... I decided to sms the following n wat she reply me.. Makes me very angry..!! The sms war begin..

ME: I say you need not return me any money. This way you will be very happy! But i change my mind! I wan you to return me every single cent that you owe me! Hp bill bal $1450. On 14/11/07 transfer you $30. Lent you $20 for cig n ezlink. Lent you money in malaysia $100. On 30/03/08 transfer you $100. That's call i've recorded. The rest i've no idea le. Total $1700. You return me $500 first. The rest let you use 1yr to return me the money! Every mth transfer me $100. You tell me a date. Than i'll check my ibanking every mth and msg you how much bal. Or wat other suggestion you have?

*waited for 10mins..

Ungrateful Idiot: So r u tellin me u wanna make ting turn ugly?

ME: Wat pretty or ugly? Or are you telling me you don't intend to return me money? Do you know the very last time you return me money is jan'08 leh... Am i doing things too much? You ask yourself la!

U-I: Harlow! If u reali wan to say tat den can i ask bill is under karen de... Y u put it in my acc.. I din say u wad.. ytdae u saw me n her den u got mad... now den tryin to count evy single ting! pay u evy single cent! if that e case i'll pay u wad i lend! karen acc u ask from her.. hen bu xiang qian ni anymore..

ME: I nv expect you to say this to me. You this ungrateful idiot.. That time is YOU who say karen de i can count into your acc. Now you are telling me this.. Very FINE! Than when are you returning me de $250??

**Waited for another 1hr n 22mins... And i BTH..!!

ME SMS AGAIN: I nv expect you to treat ur sis this way! When you are poor you will think of looking for me. But when you start to work and afford to change hp n spec. Who am i? Do u think karen will be able to return me de money? Whereby she is jobless..

U-I: I don't wanna urge wif u.. I change my spec haf been 2mths lidat.. It cindy hu pay for me!! I don't wanna say much.. e more i say, e more wrong i haf.. So she got no money izzit mean tat i haf money?

ME: But you have a job now! And you leave your sis in the lurch! Than when are you returning me the money YOU owe me? I'm broke!

U-I: I leave her go lurch! U go ask her, hu left hu.. Will transfer u tml.. aft i finish work.. abt 9plus..

ME: Before i go ask her, you better think carefully before you speak! You say tml transfer, you better do wat u meant. Bu yao kou shou wu ping. Next time when you are in a lurch i'm going to leave you alone. Don't come and look for me. Look for your baby! She will never leave you alone de.

U-I: I'm owaez alone.. sorry she n i only FRENZ! Don't blif den don ask.. Tml mean tml.. stop rushin me.. i oreadi say aft 9 means 9.. so don sms me or cal me n askin abt it..

ME: Ya very great! I always trust you but you always lie. Therefor now i chose not to believe you coz none of your words are trustable. You know it yourself! Don't act until you very pitiful.

U-I: Ya i owaez act! Pls rem wad u say to me all tis ting! don't forget! I'll make sure to treat u how u treat me today! You best! Don't nid to replie! I'm jus a liar to u!

ME: Whatever! You know it yourself de best!

Morale of the story.. Don't trust anyone.. Especially those kind of ungrateful idiot.. And don't lend anyone money.. Bcoz not everyone know that.. "You jie you huan.. zai jie bu nan!" Don't say i not good.. Tml after ten than i check my ibanking.. SEE you got transfer me money ma? I DOUBT so lo... Coz whatever u say, u nv did it de lo! I got 1 sentence for u.. "You jie nan huan.. zai jie gen nan!!"Even if u r homeless i also don't care lo.. Go find ur baby n nt me! COZ I'M WAITING FOR U TO TREAT ME THE SAME WAY I TREAT U TODAY! But anyway.. I got nth that u can dui fu wo lo.. Unless u n that evil woman is 1 of a kind than i got nth to say... Only wanna say u r so CHEAP! I get money back from u is like all my fault like that lo.. Wat? If i nv take money from u, i'm angel huh? Puke... You are always lying to me! You should know what i'm talking abt.. My friend say i'm jealous on the evil woman. But i'm NOT.. I jus BU SHUANG! Why must i let the 2 of them have a good time together? I'm always too nice that's why u take me for granted.. I wanna let you know WHO AM I!!

Said that I love you...
I have loved you all along..

Saturday, December 27, 2008
3:48 AM

I couldn't sleep...!! I thought i have cool down but NO... My eyes out of a sudden will have water... And i cried again!! Why am i crying? I'm not the old eileen i used to be le... I can't stop thinking of the image that i saw them.. Why i so sway? EILEEN can u stop thinking n cry ma?! You are very useless to cry over this kind of ungrateful idoits!! When they are poor they think of u.. When they are rich they jus doesn't think of u at all? Why is this world so unfair!! I HATE YOU!!

Said that I love you...
I have loved you all along..

2:07 AM

Today actually i plan not to go out de... Coz i very tired.. But sharon sms n call me... She ask me to acc her to buy present lo... Than i meet her at cwp coz i lazy to go far.. I only blog so little n i'm crying nw... I tried to hold back my tears n nt to cry at all de... But i don't know why suddenly my tears jus keep flowing down... I really super sad, unhappy, moody... watever u can think of is how i feel now..!!
Here goes what happen... Althought i was tired to go out... But still ok coz i saw alot of things.. I wanna buy but no money to buy all... Than me n sharon decided to go for dinner first b4 continue to shop.. We went pastamania again... Don't know why sharon so craving for pasta lo? Than she went to order... When she walk back towards her table... She told me she saw 2 ppl... Than i hao qi so i ask WHO? She say esmond n landy... Than i start looking around n i actually saw them!!! I can't believe my eyes so i called esmond... HENG, she tell me she eating with landy lo. If nt i sure go over to make a fuss lo...!! Than i continue talk to esmond lo... While talking to esmond i keep looking at LANDY. Coz I DON'T LIKE HER AT ALL... SHE IS AN IDOIT PLUS EVIL WOMAN...!!! I NT SCARE OF U, U 1 COME FIND TROUBLE FOR ME? COME LA... I NOT SCARE..!! I SAY AGAIN... I NOT SCARE OF YOU!!!!!!!!!! Why u don't dare to look at me leh? Scare of me huh? I thought u super fierce n evil woman de? Why saw me liao, u don't dare to look up? I know that u already saw me lo.. Why? Why does u woman always like to fight with me? Always wanna win me? Win liao so wat? Nv win than so wat again? HEY... PLS REMEMBER LA... If i NEVER fight with u, do u think u can win me? WAIT LONG LONG LA..!! I jus don't wanna fight with u only la. I jus BU SHUANG!! When u break off, u say wat..?? My parents are old.. I don't wanna let her down... I wanna find a proper guy n settle down n get married n have child... PUKE!!! U r such a great liar... SO wat nw? You know that esmond have the money now... U wanna bluff all the money la? Than wat? LEAVE her again... I super regret asking esmond to jio u back when i found out how evil u r!!! You are so FAKE la..!! Use evil ways to get the things that u wan... WO KAN BU QI NI!!!PUKE!!! You are such a BITCH!!! I can only say SHE is not a simple woman... That's all i can say.. There is nth much i can say le... Coz u r not going to believe what i say de...
It's all too late... Nth can save the day... Coz ur money all kena bluff away liao... I ask u return me money n u tell me u NO MONEY liao!! WTH la... Jus so short time n u tell me NO money liao leh! I WISH U GO TO HELL WHEN U DIE!! Coz u deserve it!! Tml need to buy 4D liao.. SO sway to see this kind of ppl.. Who knows? Maybe i got luck to win some money sia... Wish me luck!! =)
**Happy Birthday to Victor! You have grown up.. u should know what u wan for ur life liao la.. Don't get influence by others so easily..!!

Said that I love you...
I have loved you all along..

Wednesday, December 24, 2008
5:01 AM

I'D RATHER

(Verse 1)
I thought some time alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful storyand so I left the one I love at home to be alone (alone)
and I tried and found
out this one thing is truet
hat I'm nothing without youI know better now
and I've had a change of heart

(Chorus)
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heartoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

(verse 2)
And then I met someone
and thought she could replace youwe got along just fine
but wasted time because she was not youwe had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection built on lies, all lies

so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without youI know better now
and I've had a change of heart

(Repeat Chorus)
I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart (who holds my heart)

I can't blame you if you turn away from me like I've done you
I can only prove the things I say with time
Please be mine

(repeat chorus until fade)

** I've listened to the song.. And here is the lyrics for u.. I know this is how u feel... You have my support!! Don't worry be happy... =)

Said that I love you...
I have loved you all along..

Tuesday, December 23, 2008
4:40 AM

Haiz.. Today i woke up too late to go meet ger ger n jess.. Last nite i can't slp lo... Than by the time i woke up, i realise is abit too late to go out.. If i go out, i wouldn't be able to watch little nonya.. Today 2ep leh... Very excited to watch lo.. Heeheez... I love mon to fri lo.. =P

Again i stay home the whole day.. Today there is ppl saying me closing up myself n ask me out ten times and i always say NO. And he don't like.. THAN STOP ASKING ME OUT LA... Wu liao la... U don't like than keep asking for what? Is nt tat u r nt my friend, jus that i don't wanna go out can? I nv work leh...Okay.. Can say i don't have the heart to find work! Than? Is my freedom to ask whoever out i want ok! When i feel that i wanna go find job n when i have the money than I'LL CONFIRM CALL U OUT K!!


Okiee... Enough of all the nonsense craps... Today i decided to watch some movies that i've nt watch from the cinema... Guess what? I'm loading ELEVEN movies nw!! Hahahaz... Wohh... I've jus finish watching Legally Blonde[律政俏佳人] n The House Bunny [男孩心思我最懂]. *Click on the chinese wordings.. It will lead u to the show.. =)* This 2 movies are damn great la... Very heng i can get to watch this 2 shows for FREE online... Hahahaz... NO need pay money for movies wor... It's a great show must watch! I can say i like that lady with the blonde hair who is acting in the shows.. She is so beautiful n full of confidence..!!


Said that I love you...
I have loved you all along..

Monday, December 22, 2008
4:53 AM

Yeah.. Tml meeting my very CUTE n ACTIVE gan nui er... Hahaz... Coz her mummy wanna go jurong point to walk walk as jurong point open new extention.. Tml have to carry that cute ger walk walk around to look around...
Recently have been playing pet society with vivien.. Hahahaz... She very cute la.. I teach her how to play.. And she also addicted liao.. Hahaz... Finally this girl got FACEBOOK lo.. HEeHeE.. Gonna play more games with her... Few more days kenny also will have laptop than we shall have lots of funs in playing alot of games together... Fun fun... =)
I going to sleep le.. Tml going out with ger ger.. Will take more photos for her.. And I MUST HAVE A PHOTO WITH HER... This ger don't let ppl take photos with her de... I must TRY my best.. =)
*Sharon.. I can't go ur ah ma de song ka.. I hereby send my deepest condelence reguards.. sorry =(

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I have loved you all along..

Tuesday, December 16, 2008
3:55 AM

I have changed my blog skin..!! Heeheez... =)

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I have loved you all along..

Sunday, December 14, 2008
1:43 AM

Xian Shi De Yi Wang MV - Pan Jia Li

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I have loved you all along..

Friday, December 12, 2008
2:08 AM

Today when i'm talking on the phone with my friend... Suddenly I turn my head towards the window there, i saw something that shock me...!! MY room wall crack n there is bubble at the bottom with water inside sia... I quickly shout for my dad n ask him to come in n have a look.. He ask me to go poke out the bubble to let the water out.. But i don't dare.. I SCARE don't know what thing will come out when i poke it... What must i do leh??





* SEE THE CRACK ON TOP *

* BOTTOM IS BUBBLE SIA! WHEN TOUCH GOT WATER! *

The day b4 i went shopping with sharon at bugis n suntec... I suddenly saw this little miss n mr de series the clothes very cute.. Than i saw little miss chatterbox, very suitable for ger ger.. So i bought for her... Is abit big for her to wear now. So i ask ting to keep n let her wear later when she grow up.. I also bought Mr Bump for myself.. Coz very cute sia... OMG.... I like it so much sia!!!




** For ger ger jing wen **

** For ME =P **

Said that I love you...
I have loved you all along..

Saturday, December 6, 2008
11:01 PM

Yeah... I've finally cleaned up my room!!! Every corner n every drawer... Even the books n bags drawer i've cleaned up.. I found alot of old stuff n old memories... I found alot of old photos which brought back alot of memories... Than i found last time i work at minitoons the application forms n gmask the time sheet... And even my sec sch the cheerdrill n many other things.. Wahh... Can say i have ALOT of things wor.. Hahahaz... I've thrown away alot of stuff ya.. Jus that there is 1 space i didn't clean up.. It's my clothes the drawer.. I don't know how to start with all those lots of clothes..?
Now i've done with all the housekeeping.. Accept for the clothes.. =P I've to do some serious thinking about my future le.. Enough of all the slacking n lazying around doing nth. Is time to FIND job le..!!! This time round i've been slacking for TOO long le.. From early feb 2008 ever since i've resign from gmask, i've been slacking around n nt find a job to work.. Now i'm really going to get serious abt finding a job n work.. If nt my body is going to get rusty.. Hahaz.. Wish me good luck.. =)

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I have loved you all along..